onism

i wish i could my feelings into words.

i can never tell you how i feel. it's simply too much, and i'm afraid - of what's the meaning that lies behind these feelings, of what will happen if i say them out loud.

my heart beats when i see you, despite me telling it not to every time.

my eyes trail after you without realizing, and my heart beats faster. it's as if my heart already knows what i like before my brain does.



i like you.

there's no if's. there's no maybe's. i do, i truly do - and it terrifies me to the very end. these are the words i've always wanted to say, but are too afraid to.

so i write them here instead.